BE THE TORTOISE - FINISH THE RACE
I have stoppd and started so many times in my life. I've done computer work, art, and writing. I got into trouble 16 years ago and I am still dealing with the ramifications of my actions. For years I was depressed because I wanted my life back. In 2017 I started back drawing and up until March 2020 I decided to make being an artist my career.
So I've done a 180 degree turn back to working in the field that I was educated in. Because I was born with a physical disability and then I started having mental health issues in 1999 I get a disability check from Social Security. Even though I worked and paid into the system I felt guilty for a long time that I was getting the check. Because I have a record I can't get the type of jobs that I use to have. These factored into me being depressed for years.
I did not want to live although I did not try to hurt myself except for once in 1999. I had lost my zest for life. I did not want to wake up in the morning and just accepted the fact that my life as I once knew it was over. Doing art made me feel good about my self and the thought of working for myself made me want to get up every day and become better at art.
I've come back to the computer field because I just believe it's better for me to try to work in my field for myself of course. However if something happens and my check is cut I can go out and have the experience and get a computer job and not a job flipping burgers somewhere.
I don't want any child, teen, young adult or anyone to get in trouble with the law because you can lose so much. Your Freedom, Your Dignity, and Your Family.
Learn from my mistakes. DO NOT MAKE THEM!! DO NOT MAKE THEM!!! DO NOT GET ARRESTED